long long loooong time since i blogged. ok so i'm here to clear the cobwebs now.

annoyingly, life in nus seems as stressful as in jc. readings and readings with tutorials and looong lectures are piling on me like nobody's business. and i tot uni life will not be as stressful as jc life, accoring to mr lim chee wan. =/
yep i've finally finished my bloody ss term paper. stupid shit that took up all my time for my readings. now i'm lagging waaaay behind in my jap studies and southeast asia readings. and taking the stupid english module is also a chore. hmm. okay sounds like i'm hating my uni life now. actually.. not so la. with ppl like tyler and darren, who i insist are gays, it's quite interesting. heh. frens make life better to go by. havent been seeing some my of o week frens for ages. esp daphne!! darling if u happen to be reading, i miss u loads alright? =] camy seem to disappeared frm sea lecture and tutorial too..
hmmm. it's recess week now and i'm mugging like there's no tml. damn. u call this HOLIDAY? my foot. argh. term papers, projects, tests. mugging is my amphethamine. it causes my system to work overtime, won't leave me and extra energy and cause me to burn up whatever energy reserves i have. ok this is frm psychology. i sound so smart now eh. :)
okay... so i've been living at his house. so far so good. except the fact that i feel this is making me an alien in church or cg. it's not right. it's not right. it's not right. i've heard this like zillion times. i'm NOT going to move to PGP. it's flooded with foreigners esp. CHI-NAS. they get on my nerves seriously. i feel like i'm a foreigner in my ss lecture. everywhere u turn u can see them and worse, HEAR them. yah yah go pretend that everybody is as deaf as u, losers. they've crossed my limit of tolerance. i'm sorry but i have to let it out.
okay. i've done something real bad. =/ real evil. uh so i'll have to live with the guilt. i'm trying and trying to make up for wat i've done. i'm ALWAYS not the good girl. ALWAYS not the understanding and supportive one. ALWAYS the jealous and possessive freak. ALWAYS dun feel for u. ALWAYS selfish. and so i dun understand why u're still keeping me.
somehow, in some part of me, there's this hidden fact that u will find some other better girl somewhere, some time. and maybe i do deserve to be left on the shelve and wait for my expiry date to come. and die an old virgin. oh yes i do think so. and yes i also do know that u're gonna scold me when u read this. oh wells.

okay happy stuff now. :)
the girls stayed over!! wahaha. though not as fun as the cutting jeans time but still not bad la. like going to petrol station in the middle of the night to buy nonsense to eat. chocolate muffins, cup noodles, chocolate and strawberry milk, POTATO CHIPS!! haha. and i ALWAYS fall asleep first. sorry larr. i have too much melatonin. heh.
hmmm. went for facial yesterday morning. and cut my hair. i wanna dye my hair tooo. maybe tml.
i miss u baby. hurry come back. i hope u still love me after sleeping with 9 other guys at the same time. haha. the more the merrier eh? ok la. i can pretend tat i din hear anything that night frm ur gay partner. lol.

okay. back to mugging.